stressss?

YES!

You guys wil be asking 'hey, u're nt even studyin/workin, stress wut?'
but i can tell u, even if i'm nt, but still i'm stress & over depression regrading on my uni's application..(so fcking long time u spent jobless, Js doin these?!)
Its lik 2 yrs feelings that happened ago & it's coming bak nw..
Havin a bad feeling that i cant enter good UNi..
i noe i aint smart but i did tryin my very best doing everything that is worth to do..
yea! so end up taking form 6 in 2yrs ago..(bcos of sum stupid reason end up miss my SAM intake)

so wat's next?
Local UNi?private Uni?Oversea?
First thing come to my mind *oversea* - SG,Nz,Oz,Uk
But its lik not working, there is so many diff reasons or shall i say family excuses(due to diff location, my family matters-gt relatives der o nt?living exp high o nt?weather cold o nt?)
& SG lik not replying me..(DUH!!!stil wait?obviously cant get already la..)
how sadd...T.T

FIne.. den wat's nxt?
Private uni? hah! Good one..so near my hse (sure no prob la)
NOOO~! wronggg.. most uni dun accept MuEt result.. dey prefer ielTs o ToeFL..
yah i did sat ieLts for Rm850.. score oni overall 6 for d four papers..(i tot its d min requiremt for uni)
Nah!~ i m totally wrong..
Mostly they wan an overall of 6.5 above!!
wtF?!
its nt easy compare to muet or those past eng paper u sat b4..
Esp for ppl lik me, i usually dun speak tat much english at home unless to my lil banana bro & its been so long i din write any long essay..(ma brain hav been rotten for quite sumtime)

Wat should i do now? resit? spend another $ to take again.? wat if i stil cant get 6.5 above for all papers?It wil b wasting time,paper,money,petrol,ink,saliva&etc etc..lolx..

hmm...

I Dun wana get screw by my dad again for taking ielts..But its realy aint easy to score..
& wen stress+scare+brain rot altogether = i wil go crazy or even worse..
Sum ppl wil ask me, 'hey, go other uni tat dun need dis ielts thingy la' well, if u wanna get into a good uni, most of them prefer ielts or sumtink INTERNATIONALLY recognize..

so...
HELP ME~!
T.T